Why Did I Leave?

Today, I officially withdrew from the college I met some of the greatest people at, learned things I would have never had at, and became the person I am. So, you might ask, why did I leave? 

The universe. Or the man upstairs. I don't think it truly matters if I'm being honest. It just felt right. 

For the majority of my life, I didn't trust my feelings. I trusted my gut but my emotions, nope. I just used the left side of my brain and made the logical, rational choice. And this decision to transfer is a strategic and rational decision for me to make in the hopes of accomplishing what I want in life. However, for the first time, it's the right emotional decision, too. 

The college I've attended the last two years helped me learn how to accept what I was feeling and use it to help me attain my goals, something I thought would never work. It's just, now, I need to move on to continue growing - academically and emotionally. It's time to challenge myself, once again, and fight through the nauseating feelings of change and prove to myself I can do it, I can do whatever I set my mind to. 

When I received the acceptance letter in the mail from the University I am transferring to, my heart stopped. For the first time, in a very long time, I made a decision for myself and absolutely no one else. I was selfish, and you know what, it felt good. I've never felt better about a decision in my life, and, honestly, everyone I care about is so happy for me. I received nothing but good wishes and "congratulations" from everyone, and for the few who haven't said anything or who are mad, I hope we can continue to be friends and one day you'll understand. 

Transferring colleges was not an easy decision, but, it was the right one. So to anyone considering making a big change, no matter what it is, I hope you remember to put yourself first. Take time to listen what your heart, not just your mind, is saying and take the leap. 

Till next time, 

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